a big tip in writing is to “take a step back” and wait a few days, weeks, even months before going over your first draft.
maybe the same is true for trauma
to forget it for awhile
to tuck it away in the folds of your grey matter
to bury it in the bottom of your sheets with chilly toes
and sit on it for a few days, weeks, even months
before going over it.
maybe you need to let it stew
let it sit
let it tumble around in your brain without your consciousness getting in the way
maybe you need to see it with different eyes
eyes more wise and steeled with time.
strengthened by distance.
maybe you need to forget a little
to be strong enough to step back into your pain again.
maybe that’s why i know my grandparents’ stories
but not my own.